Never realized the best thing was surrounded

The old rhythm, old movies, old pictures and those old memories which gave me a deeply thought of how I thought I was not surround by all good thing when it was all around.

5769.37 miles away from the past it set me all emotional that I hardly to describe by a word. Tears and Smile are struggling with me day by day, though the huge grin on my face and the laughter from my voice are slightly fading away since 5769.37 miles away.  Few drops of tears dropped on the face gently it seems become a regular visitor, it helps to wash the sorrow, gloominess, loneliness away specially when there is never have a right time with a right person to talk to.

The benefit is I cherish more than ever.

Decision made by myself, there is nobody could blame on,  If things could not turn out like what I thought it could be, NEVER REGRET is what I am hoping for. Because I do not want to repeat the chapter again when the good thing is surround, thus cherish and forgiveness are lately insert into my mind before it is too late.

Old people with experiences, young people with creative thought.

Experiences are made of spirits, courage, ambitions, tears, desire, sadness and lessons.
Creative is do whatever you want, the other hand is without responsibility.

Think creative is full of my mind, it is a time to grab some experiences to make it balance, It is a right time to take a life lesson, to learn from both and good side, bad person can always reminds and warn me never learn to be one of them, good person can show I could probably do better and get wiser.

At the end, I am grateful for those person who are still loving me as I know I am not an easy one to take care of. My love for them are never going to end.

I am still an innocent

Today is never too late to be brand new!

Living well is the best revenge!

Living well is the best revenge!

Before It's Too Late......

2 years ago, I thought I became wiser. Still.. I'm struggling by the same thing which annoying me for how much I put my heart in it and how much it got me fall into the pain! "Stop it" I kept telling myself, something is hard to control and something is out of control, we can't decide it. Just let it happen if it will be happen! Sigh... that's one of the rule I know about the world ever since someone stole my heart. Right the world is cruel!


As long as I'm thinking of myself.. Just myself! My mind start to getting clear and thinking wiser. Thus better do something for myself not anyone of the human in the world but ME, MYSELF and I, I can tell life will be getting easier and happier!
Right now, I just have no clue what to do?! I had my dream, passion with me since I bought the flight ticket, get back my passport. Now I don't wanna take this step, it's gonna be a hugs step for me to make it through, man... It ain't easy than people just say "C'mon just travel, NO BIG DEAL!".. "Take it easy" ..."Why so serious?"...... Do you really think If you left your heart in the other side of the world, and you think it is an easy thing for you to take it back from where you left?! "C'mon just travel, NO BIG DEAL?!" It's a really BIG DEAL when you know you gonna get back the broken heart! "Take is easy"?! That's what keep me struggling, nothing is harder than you think things could be really complicated, how can I be easy?! "Why so serious?" Nothing could be serious then "LOVE" in the world! Without "Love", world ain't exist!


so what to do? Walk away with losing and don't look back BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE? The final bet? Wish someone could give me a hint!

The Climb - Miley Cyrus

At the moment, there's only one song to cheer me up! Thank you Miley Cyrus!

I can almost see itThat dream I am dreamingBut there's a voice inside my head saying"You'll never reach it"Every step I'm takingEvery move I make feelsLost with no directionMy faith is shakingBut I gotta keep tryingGotta keep my head held highThere's always gonna be another mountainI'm always gonna wanna make it moveAlways gonna be a uphill battleSometimes I'm gonna have to loseAin't about how fast I get thereAin't about what's waiting on the other sideIt's the climbThe struggles I'm facingThe chances I'm takingSometimes might knock me downBut no, I'm not breakingI may not know itBut these are the moments thatI'm gonna remember most, yeahJust gotta keep goingAnd I, I got to be strongJust keep pushing on'Cause there's always gonna be another mountainI'm always gonna wanna make it moveAlways gonna be a uphill battleSometimes I'm gonna have to loseAin't about how fast I get thereAin't about what's waiting on the other sideIt's the climb, yeah!There's always gonna be another mountainI'm always gonna wanna make it moveAlways gonna be an uphill battleSomebody's gonna have to loseAin't about how fast I get thereAin't about what's waiting on the other sideIt's the climb, yeah!Keep on moving, keep climbingKeep the faith, babyIt's all about, it's all about the climbKeep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Everything is not what it seems

Everything happens for a reason, when life doesn't get what you want it to be, you can not blame on anything because there is no one fault, the only options are for you to face it or let it go. Life will be struggle sometimes, the smart one will be strong to face it and take the lesson from the pain, the lose one will escape as long as they can. Just get to decide what kind of person you will be as you facing the struggle moment in life.

I've learn heaps of lessons from those experience, the precious one would be someone told me life is not fair. Thank GOD for let me met this person who teach me lots of things that i can never ever learn enough knowlege from him. forgiveness is the most hardest thing for everyone to make it, but because of him i've lose my selfish-pride and forgive.

Thanks for let me know i am only 19 not 91. I will have loads of life lesson to take because everything is not what it seems.

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

Memories will never be forget

Every time I listen the music what I used to listen on the way home or Cali I remember those people I met, things I've done. Whether it was sad or happy, how lucky I was to let those things passed me by, but the memories always in my heart.



I feel so unsafe since I lost my cell phone few days ago, well I am sorry to tell, RIGHT I AM SO PISSED ATM, the model of the phone not a cause to make me get depressed, I could totally get a new one in a day, but I can't get the same phone list and text anymore, no one could understand how important these number and message to me, since I lost my cell phone at the same time I lost myself too.