Before It's Too Late......

2 years ago, I thought I became wiser. Still.. I'm struggling by the same thing which annoying me for how much I put my heart in it and how much it got me fall into the pain! "Stop it" I kept telling myself, something is hard to control and something is out of control, we can't decide it. Just let it happen if it will be happen! Sigh... that's one of the rule I know about the world ever since someone stole my heart. Right the world is cruel!


As long as I'm thinking of myself.. Just myself! My mind start to getting clear and thinking wiser. Thus better do something for myself not anyone of the human in the world but ME, MYSELF and I, I can tell life will be getting easier and happier!
Right now, I just have no clue what to do?! I had my dream, passion with me since I bought the flight ticket, get back my passport. Now I don't wanna take this step, it's gonna be a hugs step for me to make it through, man... It ain't easy than people just say "C'mon just travel, NO BIG DEAL!".. "Take it easy" ..."Why so serious?"...... Do you really think If you left your heart in the other side of the world, and you think it is an easy thing for you to take it back from where you left?! "C'mon just travel, NO BIG DEAL?!" It's a really BIG DEAL when you know you gonna get back the broken heart! "Take is easy"?! That's what keep me struggling, nothing is harder than you think things could be really complicated, how can I be easy?! "Why so serious?" Nothing could be serious then "LOVE" in the world! Without "Love", world ain't exist!


so what to do? Walk away with losing and don't look back BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE? The final bet? Wish someone could give me a hint!